Wednesday, June 29, 2011
It's a tough time
I am so tired of being the victim, of my children not having a normal life. I am constantly moving to keep us safe, I can't hold a job because anyone that resembles "him" freaks me out. I am so tired of being poor. My kids deserve to be able to go to a theme park or to see family and friends.
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Nightmares
As I sit here, in front of my computer, I am having a horrible time keeping my eyes open. It is 9:13 am, Thursday, May 19th. I didn't go to bed until after 2am this morning and after finally dozing off I had one of my frequently reoccurring nightmares. This time it is the one where the monster has taken my daughter and I am in a horrified panic trying to find her. That nightmare always results in me waking up in the middle of a full fledged panic attack, unable to breathe, with chest pains that feel like a heart attack. It usually takes only a couple of minutes (which actually feels like a lifetime) to subside but this morning it was different. I honestly thought I was going to die. It seemed to go on forever. I have since recovered and instead of being a pile of goop in the corner, rocking back and forth, I have put on my brave face, kissed each one of my children awake to start their day. Their faces are the things that keep me sane in this insane world. I thank God every morning for giving me another day to be their mom.
Well, it is time for waffles, so I leave you for now, whoever you may be, if there is anyone at all reading. I leave you with the hope that you too can put on your brave face in this insane world and enjoy every minute the Lord gives you.
Well, it is time for waffles, so I leave you for now, whoever you may be, if there is anyone at all reading. I leave you with the hope that you too can put on your brave face in this insane world and enjoy every minute the Lord gives you.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
James Cromwell Saved My Life
Hello,
My name is Tina W. and I am a domestic violence survivor. My abuser made national headlines in 1999 in North Carolina. The abuse that PETA (The People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals) videotaped undercover was atrocious. His actions were shown to Congress by renowned animal lover and Hollywood star, James Cromwell, in the attempt to strengthen laws protecting farm animals. Although I applaud Mr. Cromwell and PETA for their actions, I was extremely saddened that there is no organization like that for the protection of victims of abuse, or at least none that I had heard of.
When Raymond Sanchez was put in jail for this I made my escape. I changed my name, moved thousands of miles away and never looked back. Essentially, James Cromwell saved mine and my son's life. I doubt that Mr. Cromwell knows just how important his and PETA's actions were to me.
My son from my marriage with that monster has never had a normal life. He has been home schooled, never allowed to play any organized sports or even live in one place more than a year. We have moved 17 times in the last 12 years. The guilt I feel everyday for him and my other children (I have since remarried and have two wonderful children) is overwhelming. I spend every second of every day diligently protecting my children. I am constantly on the look out for anyone or anything out of the ordinary. To say I am paranoid is an understatement.
Some of you may say that I am crazy. So I invite you to watch the video of the monster I am running from. Then maybe you will see that what I do is not crazy, but a necessity. Here is the URL on you tube to the video James Cromwell and PETA made, be warned these images are extremely graphic and is NOT suitable for children!
http://youtu.be/OJZZOe2K15k
This is my first post but will be by no means my last. I would like to share with anyone interested the life I escaped from and the one my family now leads.
Thank you for sharing in my healing process.
My name is Tina W. and I am a domestic violence survivor. My abuser made national headlines in 1999 in North Carolina. The abuse that PETA (The People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals) videotaped undercover was atrocious. His actions were shown to Congress by renowned animal lover and Hollywood star, James Cromwell, in the attempt to strengthen laws protecting farm animals. Although I applaud Mr. Cromwell and PETA for their actions, I was extremely saddened that there is no organization like that for the protection of victims of abuse, or at least none that I had heard of.
When Raymond Sanchez was put in jail for this I made my escape. I changed my name, moved thousands of miles away and never looked back. Essentially, James Cromwell saved mine and my son's life. I doubt that Mr. Cromwell knows just how important his and PETA's actions were to me.
My son from my marriage with that monster has never had a normal life. He has been home schooled, never allowed to play any organized sports or even live in one place more than a year. We have moved 17 times in the last 12 years. The guilt I feel everyday for him and my other children (I have since remarried and have two wonderful children) is overwhelming. I spend every second of every day diligently protecting my children. I am constantly on the look out for anyone or anything out of the ordinary. To say I am paranoid is an understatement.
Some of you may say that I am crazy. So I invite you to watch the video of the monster I am running from. Then maybe you will see that what I do is not crazy, but a necessity. Here is the URL on you tube to the video James Cromwell and PETA made, be warned these images are extremely graphic and is NOT suitable for children!
http://youtu.be/OJZZOe2K15k
This is my first post but will be by no means my last. I would like to share with anyone interested the life I escaped from and the one my family now leads.
Thank you for sharing in my healing process.
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